2008; First Year from Home

crazydan08 @ 2009-04-24T22:43:00

2009-04-29T16:45:07Z

This is way overdue.

Tradition dictates that if I ever make an LJ update again, that I should do so under the alias crazydan09, since its the year 2009. =)

So next time you read this, add me!

Its the new year!!

2009-01-16T17:37:15Z

...and it will be known as crazydan09

Another wonderful conversation!

2009-01-14T03:08:45Z

[22:01] danlivesinabox: I was talkin' to my brother about my Masturbationless 2009 plan and he said it was biologically unhealthy.
[22:02] thehairiestone: No it isn't
[22:02] thehairiestone: oh yeah, that reminds me. I already forfeited
[22:03] thehairiestone: I suck at not masturbating
[22:03] danlivesinabox: You bitch.
[22:03] danlivesinabox: Already that bored up there?
[22:04] thehairiestone: Well, when I get alone and near my computer the magic starts to fly and I almost can't control myself. My hands are like, "Let us do all the work."
[22:04] thehairiestone: *wink*
[22:05] danlivesinabox: How do you get your hands to wink at you? do you actually like......start typing and doing work and suddenly you clasp your fists and move your thumbs like they're seducing you?
[22:05] danlivesinabox: Like your being molested...lol!
[22:06] danlivesinabox: Harrison: No....no I have work to do......I have to ....oooOoooOoohhh....
[22:06] danlivesinabox: Hands: Just lay back.....it'll all be over with soon......
[22:06] thehairiestone: Jeez, dan the Wink is just implied
[22:06] thehairiestone: ok stop
[22:06] danlivesinabox: rofl
[22:06] thehairiestone: that is just awful
[22:06] danlivesinabox: ROFL
[22:06] danlivesinabox: oooh shit
[22:06] thehairiestone: and I don't want to think about it anymore
[22:06] danlivesinabox: your laughing too hard, aren't you?
[22:07] thehairiestone: Man, I shouldn't even have said that.

First day of College...again...

2009-01-12T17:20:45Z

...and I'm finally doing it. I'm finally back in college and getting my edumacations again. Its going to be very hectic though, due to my college schedule and my work wanting to tear me in half. But eh, what more could a former college dropout ask for, eh? Alls I know, is that I should be thankful for this because I'd rather be torn in half then pummeled by the factory life. But that is enough about that, its too early to tell if I'm going to get along this semester or not.

So! Life! People are coming and people are going. Harrison visited Vincennes this past couple of weeks. It felt like a month, really, and it was sad when he had to leave. Last New Year's I also made a resolution to not masturbate for the entire year of 2009, and I'VE STAYED TRUE TO THAT. However, I also tried to vow to not play WoW as well for the entire semester but I broke down from that one. My account closed Friday and I brought it back up Sunday. Sad, ain't I?

I should totally get a bet going to make my friends take me to a strip club before the end of '09 just so they can test me. Its sooooooo sad though, but yet I wonder how this will impact myself by the end of the year. Will I go crazy? I've done this before, after all..

Alls I know is that I need to get a new bookbag. I lost my mushroom that I bought off Drew. Maybe I could find one at the book store...I mean I have this black leather one on me right now but I need a damned strap! And these books they're giving me are going to KILLZ MEH! RAWR BLOODY MURDER DEATH!

I guess nobody updates Facebook anymore except Carleen still. *waves to Carleen* Carleen I saw all your updates and I nearly went into a seizure. GOOD LORD GIRLY!

You know, now that I think about it, I really ought to delete this journal and make a crazydan09 journal. In fact, next time I make an update I'll probably do that. 2008 was definitely a bad year for me.

Peace.

Now I'm not gay or anything...

2008-11-11T21:12:48Z

...but I completely agree with what this guy says about Prop 8.

*applauds*

A lovely screenshot

2008-10-30T22:21:19Z

Approaching the College Instance!

2008-10-24T15:53:17Z

All my quests are ready!

I have about 2 months to get the gear I need!

I have David and friends for heals!

Here I go!

*jumps in the instance*

Yes folks, as of today, I am officially returning to Vincennes University to become a Computer Technician OR I will be going into Networking. One or the other really, whatever catches my fancy. I have an awesome advisor who really knows what he is doing since he's been around for 33 years, David is generally in the same field as I am so since I'm going to start with the Basics, I'm sure he'll know all about it. The only flaw of this whole thing is that I need to work up to College Algebra, so I'll be doing Intermediate Algebra for now.

By the way, I still need my W-2's Lee! If I don't hear back from you soon I'll just have them send me another one. I checked the post office today after work and THEY told me that it should have been sent to my house, here in Vinny. So yeah, wtf.

Work is ok, though it feels like I never really have any money on me. Usually my 100$ of each paycheck is thrown at my credit card or my insurance/cell phone bills.

I'm also starting to play Dungeons and Dragons like the big fat nerd I am. Sadly though, the Wednesday game nor the Weekend game is up this week. Its kinda good though, in a way, I s'pose a break is good if I am to enjoy them more.

So yeah, things are going to get good. Hopefully I'll make it through this college gauntlet and come out breathing before its all said and done.

~ Dan

Climbing Credit Mountain

2008-10-10T14:52:32Z

So, it would seem like the only thing I have to do NOW, now that I'm back home, is gather my money, use it to bury my credit card and hopefully get it out of my life for good. I don't want my credit going to shit and if I pay the whole thing off, I'm sure that'll save me....or at least I would hope.

But in the meantime, while I'm waiting for that to happen, I've decided to find things to do in the meantime. Mostly games, internet games. I've decided to rejoin the World of Warcraft and help out Harrison give the Red Dragon Syndicate a fresh start on things. Hopefully now that I am home, and don't plan on leaving, I can still around and help recruit and talk and help. Hopefully I get alot done with that before I go back to college.

Speaking of college! I'm officially going back and am going to take the Computer Repair course. My brother is a wiz at math so he can help me out if I have a problems, plus he has some experience within the technology building. He even went out of his way to get me a tour with his teacher in the building.

Know what I did? Know what I did in return? I gave him a Jay C card! Boy I'm such a good brother! LOL!

But no, seriously, I'm thankful he's helping me out. I'm actually still thankful that I'm getting everything behind me, or at least trying to. I finally found Kent too, he's still with Joni's former friend Jaclyn. They're cool enough, but I think I lost her phone number that I'm supposed to use to get ahold of Kent. Curse it all! Why am I so bad with numbers?!

Its a little weird just having me and David by ourselves here at the house though. Mom has officially moved out and only comes around on Wednesday nights and then hangs out all day Thursday. David won't say much on the subject, at least in front of her, but as far as I'm concerned I wish her the best. If anything, at least I want her to know she has a home to come back to, just like she told me the same whenever I was up in Greenwood.

Anyways! I hear that there is going to be a bran new Nintendo DS coming out now! Although it can't play GBA games (which I'm kinda thankful), it totally makes up for with its new features. It can play music, and I think it can take pictures too! Basically like a gamer's cell phone, media device......yay! Now we can wear our new DSi's with pride and we'll be all like...

Stranger: "Who, what is that? Is that a new iPod?"

..and then I'll be all like...

Dan: "FUCK.....THAT..... naw actually its my new DSi. Its a gamer fad."

Stranger: "oh god, now I totally need to get me and all my friends into gaming and enrich the gaming community and the economy with our money we spend mindlessly on iPod tunes and sex!"

Dan: "awesome, kthxbye"

Oh come on, you totally know it'd be like that. You know I don't even know why I feel I have the actual motivation to update this LJ this morning. Everytime I start I kinda just drop out but I suppose I cured myself by actually finishing a forum reply. Amazing.

ANYWAYS, maybe I'll update this thing again in a week or later. We'll see what happens, but until then everyone, ya'll take it easy. =P

~ Dan

Back Home

2008-09-22T03:20:50Z

I've made it back home to Vincennes today. I hope while I'm here I can find a steady job and end up making a good income to start saving up on. I still have my cell on me but I may be getting a new phone. If I do, I'll let those who need to know, know.

Time to get me a full time job! 4 hour shifts are for pussies!

Random Picture

2008-09-16T16:56:55Z

I saw this movie like...once. Didn't really freak me out but I'll never forget it. =P

ONE OF US, ONE OF US, GOOBLE GOBBLE GOOBLE GOBBLE ONE OF US!!!

The Green in Greenwood

2008-09-15T21:38:16Z

Finding and holding a stable income of green, to me, has been really hard.

You see, today I lost my temp job over at Rexam because I was trying my hardest to get done, yet they let me go because I couldn't keep up.

Reasons being...

"I refused to speed up"

"I refused to cooperative with my fellow employees"

"I tried exceeding my authority"

...and to all of this I say this...

FUCK YOU!!!

They can't seriously believe that I wasn't doing what I was supposed to be doing, did they? I did my damn job and everything up to my last position in that place was fucking easy as hell. I could keep up, the machine operators were cool, and yet it seems that when I found this one last operator, who oh look its a chick, suddenly I'm ratted on with claims I didn't even do. Supposedly I continued to be uncooperative and wrote up my own labels without permission but WHERE THE FUCK WAS SHE? The machine I was at would get jammed like every 5 minutes, and this bitch wasn't anywhere close to her fucking post like she should have been. Things went sour and, I had to get the damn labels on the boxes, but suddenly I have to pay for her irresponsiblity? And what is this shit about me going faster? I WAS DOING MY HARDEST, EVERYONE FUCKING KNOWS THAT IT TOOK 2 TEMPS TO RUN THE N-2 STATION!!! I had help last time, why the hell couldn't I have help this time? And they're supposed to be surprised that I had difficulty? Well big fucking whoop, if I hadn't hit that station or had that chick as an operator, I can almost guarantee you that I would still be a temp now. Leave it to a chick surrounded by guys to influence the situation and make things awful for everyone...

...and you may be thinking that I'm being abit overdramatic, that it probably was my fault. Well I heard a very similiar story from my ex's stepfather, Glen, and he said that women would use these false sexual harassment claims to get guys fired from their jobs. "Oh, he was looking at my chest!", "He won't stop looking at me!". Thats fucking bullshit man, I don't have a problem with factory work but when a chick is surrounded by guys she suddenly turns into a selfish tyrant.

I can't believe I've had this much trouble keeping a job up here, I'm even going to be selling the plasma for money to be able to take care of this situation. If the jobs weren't enough, all this trouble just seems to be telling me in one word "LEAVE". I guess I'm totally expendable, wherever I go up here.

Anyways...

....so what next? Do I travel up to Muncie and try my luck up there? I know that where I want to stay, I'll have to solve some troubles with the twins and Harrison, but if I could sort that out then maybe I could get a decent job and start looking into financial aid at Ball State. I don't have a problem going home, but y'know I just want to see if I can do it, y'know? Its like a path I gotta see if I can traverse before I head back home. Going home, no matter how I look at it, will just seem like a failure to me. I don't mind the fact so much that my relationship with Joni was a mess up, but going home would just hit closer to home in my heart.

And right now, thats the last thing I need.

Journal Alive?

2008-09-10T18:39:44Z

What is this? My livejournal is still alive and functioning?

*crowd gasp!*

Well, I figured since I had nothing to do today and everything has more or less been taken care of, I should go ahead and make a Livejournal update for those rare, few survivors who actually do still look at Livejournal from time to time.

Like Lee...or......me.........or Elsa......or......well we all know Carleen still lives in the box that is Livejournal.

Anyways, what're my plans now you ask? I want to save up my money living here and hopefully either...

1) Move out and get my own place.
2) Move back home, and return to VU.
3) Move up to Muncie and try my luck at Ball State.

I like having options like this, but what I like more than options is actually having MONIES!!! Mwahahahah!!! I would actually still live in Greenwood and just get an apartment here in Winchester if I could, but I just don't see that happening if I don't have a roommate to share the bills with. Its S-spensive, S-spensive like all things here in Indianapolis. I looked up a way to get a little extra cash on the, but I must weep for I cannot get anything without first having a proof of address. What I had in mind was selling the plasma in my blood.

And no I have no idea what Joni is doing anymore. Its none of my business anymore either, don't know don't care. =D

What is that you ask? Why did we break up? One song. Numb. Linkin' Park. Listen. Its like....the only....ONLY emo song I can actually find some common ground with as far as how our relationship ended. Is that bad or what?

I've been playing Final Fantasy with Lee. I'm a White Mage, in White Ivalice with the White people. See?

But yeah, I have no friggin' idea where life is going to take me now. Hopefully it goes for the better but I'm just glad that a bad chapter in it has closed now. I can do what I want again! Yay! ^^

Anyhow, I don't have to work until this weekend. 12 hour shifts Friday to Sunday. You know that'll be fun......*yawn*.

Later tators.

Thoughts of the Road

2008-08-14T02:57:15Z

You know, whenever me and Joni first got together I couldn't help but feel like we were meant for each other in a way. Sure, that is how any couple should feel about each other whenever they first get together, but this was my first, REAL relationship in my opinion. I had it in mind that, for once, someone other than a friend or family would really "give" a crap about my welfare, about how I'm feeling, someone who'd know "me".

It all seemed so laid out to me too, before me and Joni got together. I really, really thought that I would know how to take care of a relationship. It didn't seem so hard, whenever I would speak of morals to my Mom and Dad. I felt like, if only then, that I knew what kind of principles I should live up to when I find the person I'm supposed to be with.

But, like all people, we can all have morals but we all can't live up to them. Sadly, I'm no exception, for as the months stacked and we got to know each other, we also got to know one another's flaws, weaknesses, and by the 4th month, things had seemed to be falling apart.

But this isn't about the past, this is about the future. Me and Joni's roads have split now, both of us going different ways in our lives to do whatever we have to for ourselves I suppose. I feel like I should be very bitter and angry about the whole thing, like I can't stand her at all and that I'll never want to speak to her again. But, strangely, that isn't the case. I really hold no resentment anymore over the happenings that lead to the end. I want to say that its all been a learning experience, but then I ask myself "Will I ever get another chance to use what I've learned?".

I believe that I will, though it will be long down the road before I find another girl. I was in no condition to really have a girlfriend in the first place when I got together really. I didn't even have my own place, my own future, not even my own self-esteem or confidence to defend her or lead her.

To me, I feel like in the end, I've lost a dear hug that I will never have again. I'll never be able to hold Joni when she's missed me and embrace her for a solid minute or two, where its just us, anymore. I still wish we could have ended things on better terms, that I could have one last hug before the final goodbye, but things just didn't turn out that way.

I ask myself at night, "Will I miss her?". I can only hope that whichever the case, I can remain assured that its all for the better.

The Long Awaited Update

2008-07-24T18:17:09Z

Gosh, I honestly don't think anyone even USES Livejournal anymore besides Carleen, but no matter, it still serves its purpose and like it or not, I'm going to make a gosh darned update!

First and foremost...some humor...

HAHAAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAAHAAAA!!!, probably one of the funniest WEBCOMICS that I've come across on the internet. And speaking of the internet, it is the one thing that I almost see daily nowadays here in the Greenwood Public Library. But hey, what am I supposed to do? All the friggin' jobs up here just pretty much put their hand in your face and say TALK TO THE WEBSITE IF YOU WANT A DANG JOB! Not to mention the people here aren't exactly friendly but what else is new? I just hope that when its all said and done, even though I've been here for a few months, I can get established and have a job that I know I'll have tomorrow and the next day.

Gaming really hasn't been a thing that I do too much nowadays. I play Joni's Pac-Man game because it amuses her, and I even make up stories with it as well just to make it a little more interesting. I've been selling most of my PS2 games to Gamestop so that I can buy new ones. Its like....getting new pieces of bubble gum because the others have lost all their flavor. I mean like, sure you can leave'm in water and let'm sit there overnight so they're juicy again but when their there in the fridge for so long, nobody really cares. It almost bums me out when I'm sitting there with that unused blue controller next to me as I'm blasting mindlessly at the filthy rebels in Star Wars Battlefront II.

I can\t stress enough though how bad it is when all you do for a half'n hour is talk to your friends over your phone. I have to buy a special card just so I can keep in contact with Harrison and Mikey. I wish somebody would come up and see us! We even have our apartment shiny and clean! AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHH!!

Well, thats all I feel like updating now...I lost my train of thought before I started this...

Laters!

Nice Pak? Bad Pak!

2008-04-28T13:56:26Z

Seriously, I'm beginning to truly distain Nice Pak's recruiter, Cathy Cambell Hawk. I keep calling and calling to try to return her call but all that I ever get is her friggin' voice mail. I mean, is she TRYING to ignore me or what? I want to think that her voice mail is messed up in her office or something but I definitely think that is not the case. I know I could pass any of the tests she has ready for me to take, but if she isn't going to do anything then bygod I need me some divine influence or SOMETHING.

And of course even after I do get this job I'm still going to have A TON of things to pay off before I actually get to see any of the money I'm makin'. Then again I'll be workin' alot so it should come to meet my eyes within the second paycheck but still! I need an apartment woman! It may not make the slightest of difference to her whether I get this job or not but I friggin' told her the whole flippin' story and what I'm trying to accomplish. At least she should have the decency to actually acknowledge that me damn calls. GOD!!!

But I digress, because it was my fault for irresponsibly quitting my job at Jay C Food Stores in the first place without any sign at all if I was going to be able to get this occupation.

HOWEVER

Joni is almost done with college and she has alot of support from her family as far as finding an apartment with me. I know she is ready to get everything done, and I AM TOO, but I just wish that things would click and I could start gettin' my butt moving. Just one call...JUST ONE CALL, and I'd be up in Mooresville by Noon to get my interview. Should I call them again or something? I'm beginning to think that maybe she is one of those corrupt types that the only way you can get your shoe ini the door is if you actually have a friend in the workplace!

RAWR!

Nice Pak my butt...I may just have to get hired on through Elwood, as bad as it sounds, but then again if I did I could always get the job and then eventually be promoted to get that machine operator job up. Its not like there are huge undertakings to be done to do this. I should probably apply through Elwood if that lady doesn't call me back by tomorrow, or Wednesday.

Whatever it takes man.

Sorry for anyone who had to read my ventage. Moving is frustrating and we haven't even gone anywhere yet.

The Adventures of a Boyfriend

2008-04-20T12:41:21Z

Ok, so I'll admit that even though things have been that great recently with me and Joni, I did feel bad about not having seen here in awhile.

I miss Joni, and even though I was coming to Vincennes on Monday, I was convinced that I had to make an effort and try to sort things out with her. No, I know I don't get any awards for wanting to talk but I had to try.

So last night I went to Wal-mart, bought some food for Lee's place and then whipped up a note that I was going to see Joni. I knew how to get there, my cell phone was in the red battery-wise (no bars left) so I had it off so I could make the best use of what energy I had left in it. I know now that I totally have to grab a charger next time this Monday too.

But on with the story. So its getting late and I leave the note at the apartment, grab the door key, grab my wallet and my keys and head outside into my car. Having printed off a map to get back to her Dad's, I begin my journey with high hopes that in the end of the evening, I would have her in my arms again. Once I reached the high way and I was on a straight course, I even turned my phone on to text her that I was coming for her, and that she please wait for me.

...but of course my car had to make a liar out of me...

So about 10-15 minutes out of Greenwood my car stalls, and I pull it off the side of the highway. Its dark out so I have no friggin' clue how the heck I'm going to get anywhere, seeing as how my cell phone is dead, probably nobody would pick me up, and it was probably 9:30 pm. Ok...bummer...so I wait a couple of minutes and I think "I'm sure this won't happen again, I'll just have to start her up and get back on the road!". So I start my car after 5 minutes and I head back out on the open road. But lo and behold, 5 minutes later it happens again, the car stalls and I pull over.

Now mind you even if I DID have a cell phone to use, there was nobody at the time who could get to me. Lee and Kristina were at work...Joni was all the way in Bedford and I was just really at the end of my rope. A good ways back I remembered that I had seen a gas station. So I wait again, and after another moment or so it starts and I do a U-turn back to the gas station.

Heading back now, my car breaks down again a THIRD time. Except this time I really just didn't give a crap what happened to it. I get my red jacket on, zip it up, turn everything off in my car and pull out the ole thumb next to Highway 37. Of course nobody would pick me up though, my clothes that kinda didn't a constant raffle in the wind what with nobody seein' me or didn't care to see me. Not that I can blame them, but I still had to try!

After awhile someone finally DOES pull over behind my car to see whats wrong.

"Ah, finally...a good person!......no...wait...no just a cop."

Now at first when he pulled up I had thought I would be in trouble for trying to hitch a ride on the open road, but that wasn't the case. He was actually really nice about my car being broke down! I bet he thought I was some sort of killer who got around getting rides from strangers or something. But anyways asked what was wrong with my car and I explained to him what happens everytime it breaks down. He thought it was battery trouble (and given the history of the thing I really couldn't say he was wrong!) . During the conversation though I learned why there was rough lines on the sides of the road. They wake up sleepy drivers! At first I was skeptical but it did kinda make sense. Just never knew about that I suppose.

Anyways, he tells me he could take me as close to Johnson county as he could, but as for the rest I'd be on my own. My car would be safe for 3 days as opposed to the 24 hr period with the previous time I had to abandon it. I thank him for the offer but decline, knowing that I couldn't leave this hunk of junk here on the road not because I didn't want to pick it back up later, but that I had no friggin' way to getting back to anywhere without it.

So after thanking him for the help and the advice, I hop in the car and start headin' back to gas station (back towards Greenwood). A ways down the highway, SURPRISE, it did it again! This time it was right behind a turning lane so I left it drift until I got right behind it. Sitting back in my seat I thought "Am I ever going to get anywhere with this?", and look to my right to find a gas station and a Burger King.

So I grabbed a bite to eat at Burger King. As I ate my meal though, I looked across the table, wishing that Joni was sitting across from me like she always did when we ate. I could almost imagine her there, smiling at me and to wipe my face before someone saw me. I could almost see her smile...

...but the seat was empty and I was to blame.

Since it was so dead there, I got to have a discussion with two of the employees about what could be wrong with my car. They both came to a conclusion that it had to be my alternator. :sadface: What sucks is that at his point and time, there is NO FREAKING WAY I could even think about paying to buy a new one and have it installed! I can't even afford Car Insurance on this damn thing, so WHAT am I supposed to do with a car with a time limit?

Noticing my frustration, the 67- year old cashier woman gave me the Iron Man toy from the counter. "Cheer up, kid..."

So get myself together, leave Burger King and went to the gas station next door. It was closed though...and the kid with the mop told me that after I tried to open the door once. He was an @$$ about it though, so I just strolled off to the highway barbed fence, hopped over (yes, believe it or not) and headed back to my car. I get in my car and I figured that I'm not going to get anywhere with that hunk of junk, heck I could hardly even get to Greenwood!, so I took a look back down the highway and made my way home.

My car didn't die again.

When I get to Lee's apartment, of course the place was empty with an exception of Maes and Casper. The dog crapped on the carpet so I had to beat'm to get the message clear. Cleaned it up though...and I "think" I cleaned up the spot with a paper towel but I tried the vacuum soap cleaner thingamajig on it too, just in case. I sware that dog farts too much.

Sittin' on the couch, miserable for my failure, I turned on my phone one last time to see if I couldn't yank out Joni's cell from it. Once I got it, I didn't even have to turn it off again because it died for me. I called Joni's cell from Lee's but I only got her voice mail. Not that I blame her for going to bed, but I left my message nonetheless.

I wish I could talk to her...

...but good or bad, that was my Saturday night.

I love you Joni, and I want to see you soon.

Arguments

2008-04-19T23:09:32Z

So yeah...I'm still alive.

And its true, me and Joni had an arguement over Meebo this last Thursday because we simply disagreed with how we wanted things to be done as far as moving up to Greenwood. Now that I regret arguing though, I actually got alot of things off of my chest that I wanted to say. I felt like I could finally bring my foot down on things.

But don't think I asked for help because that isn't the case, I observed and let that help me with how I should things. Bottom line though, is that I don't think its a bad thing to get into an arguement once in awhile. Usually I let things slide or I try not to argue back, but this time I had to fight back. Shouldn't I always fight back?

I'm not going to elaborate on the topics of our squabble though. I'm just glad to set it across that I'm not always going to agree. Whether your opinions be positive or negative, I don't really see any friggin' reason why I should care. People keep telling me that you never listen to anyone, but then I shouldn't have to when it comes to getting things done. Maybe I just wanna do it my way, for better or for worse.

Joni...I still want to talk to you. If I can make it to Bedford in my P.O.S. car then I'd risk it if I could come down and set things right. At least she deserves that.

BUT WHATEVER YOU COMMENT, ITS IRRELEVANT. ITS MY LIFE PEOPLE.

My Days in Greenwood

2008-04-15T18:32:57Z

So, I'm finally in Greenwood Indiana, stayin' here at Lee's place. I need to work up the nerve to call his workplace and ask for a particular lady but I'm forgetting her name at the moment and I have zilch money on my phone. (oh wait, its right in front of me. *slaps self* Of course a smart person would put money on their phone, but that tends to be a problem as well considering I have no friggin' idea where it is. Maybe its on the side of the road? Maybe its in a car even still!

Whatever the case, I don't even know if its even in the vicinity of Greenwood. But if there is an Old National Bank here in town then at least I can get money from there.

But I sware, forgetting things is getting really annoying for me. I think I ought to just buy a small notepad and keep it in my back pocket AT ALL TIMES so I can at least write stuff down. Maybe that would help me out.

As far as company though, I do wish that Joni could have came with me. I kinda feel worthless without her around, but I suppose thats to be expected. Leaving Bedford wasn't easy for me to do...emotinally and mechnically! =D My car broke down and I had to fetch it at 4 am the next day. Good thing we did too, because there was a notice on the back window that it'd be towed if I didn't do something with it.

Oy.

But its safe now, now I just need to secure my wallet and things can go as anticipated. (I hope) I believe that it may have to do with how hot my car is or something. When I went back to pick it up it ran just fine. I thought it'd die but maybe it can't get too warm. I know I kept it on 90 when this happened so that could be a theory.

When you read this Joni, please don't worry about me up here. I'm coming down with Lee this upcoming Monday so you can be in my arms by then. I love you!

~ Dan

Turtles and Dungeons...farewell!

2008-04-10T15:33:10Z

Yesterday I was watching Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles, the animated show, and it struck me odd how INCREDIBLY different they were to the movie. In the animated show, they have to fight aliens, the turtles don't even act the same (especially Raphael), and April always wears a freakin' yellow jumpsuit. Is that even fashionable? She wears it off the clock man!!!

Anyways, relucatantly, I sold some of my DS games to purchase Pokemon Pearl for the Nintendo DS. Yeah yeah yeah, call me a giant nerd kid or something, but if thats not bad, everytime I watch TMNT 1 the movie I always want to create a DnD adventure off of it. Maybe I should update my DnD gear or something. What all would I need?

- New blue mechanical pencil (forget what they're called but they're amazing)
- New Player's Handbook 3.5
- New Dungeon Masters guide...?
- New Monster Manual?

One thing that always strikes me odd about DnD campaigns is that whenever I am playing them or whenever I want to make one, they almost never seem like they will put you inside an actual dungeons. There is usually some kind of outside conflict or a war or something. (or a horrible racist scenario *cough cough*)

Man its been forever since I've been to the VU library. Its almost strange being here, but Joni is getting alot of work done here next to me so I guess it is all for the best. I bet she is impressed with how fast I am typing like this and I'm watching her right now and she is typing me on Meebo hehe! Hey Joni, I'm watching you right now and your just giving me some sly grin and I don't KNOW WHAT IT MEANS!!! CURSE YOUR ENIGMA-NESS!!

I miss my Settlers. =(
I hate Advance Wars, Days of Ruin only reminded me of how slow, annoying, and how awful that game is to play.

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...hmmm, what else.

OH YEAH! Hey everyone, the next time I will be in town will be during Joni's commencement. So like....on Friday I'm going to Bedford and then I'll be going to Greenwood to visit the Lee. Then I'll be back in like....two weeks or something. So yeah come try to find me today because I'll be gone after that! Me and Joni are goin' to be hangin' with Harrison so get ahold of him sometime after 4!!

Ok I'm outta here, later tators!

7 Months

2008-04-08T14:46:37Z

My first real day of the rest of my life started on the 7th.

Now it has been 7 months since that day, and I know that there is nobody else I'd rather spend my life with then Joni J. Hunter.

Looking back now to where we have come from, Joni and I, I can say that we have been through alot together. Sure, I know I haven't been the best boyfriend. Old habits are hard to break on my part I guess, but I am still learning and I am proud to know that I've been the nicest boyfriend that she has ever had. It kinda gives me the warm fuzzies, like I'm the best boyfriend yet.

I got my eye on a ring now. A ring just for her. =)

- Dan

The Green Road

2008-03-28T16:28:49Z

Ok, so I'm officially on track on getting the hell out of here. I don't know why too, it kind of just hit me that there really isn't a good reason for me to stay here. (Aside from friends. I'll miss you friends. =D)

But there is alot of stuff that I need to do to be able to know that we can get the heck out of here. First...

- Get to mom's house. Finish taxes.

- Explain that my car is a P.O.S and its impossible to go anywhere.

- Perhaps get the substitute car, though I know I won't be leaving Vincennes with it. A car is a car people!

- Get a great job at one of these online places that I've applied for. (Best Buy, Radio Shack, etc...)

- Visit Lee! Hi Lee!

- Ask Lee if Lee can be a reference so that maybe some whimsical way, I could get hired on into his job. The Dan hopes he is qualified.

- Make a list of bare essential incase Dan must live in car before living quarters are purchased.

Yeah, so I got alot of things to do. But its all good, because I really don't have anything holding me back. A college education would be super duper, yeah, but really just can't afford that. Besides, its never too late to go back to college. All I just need is a full-time job which is like almost impossible to get anymore because of all the stuff you have to do beforehand. I know I know, EXCUSES EXCUSES DAN! Well thats just me, an irresponsible jerk. ^_^

I'm wearing a promise ring and I can't help but wonder when I'll ever be able to save up what is currently our JOINT fund to get Joni her ring. (Promise Ring...or something better!) I mean she needs to know that I'm not just joining along for the ride, I wanna become half of wheels!

WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEELS!

Ok, time to get stuff done. I'll be seein' ya'll.

Death of Dungeons

2008-03-22T16:39:49Z

Trap!!!

2008-03-22T15:31:00Z

Rereading Life

2008-02-21T00:32:56Z

You know, I can't really say for sure why I make new journals or why I update them sometimes. Its mostly just to collect my thoughts and post them. Though I am supposed to do this only for me, I always end up doing it just for the comments that I may or may not receive.

But I will say this. I am glad that I have used Livejournal for as long as I have. There are things about me that I want to remember, things that I used to think about, memories that I don't want to let go of.

Life sure has its ups and downs though, and when you read through what you've done and your old perspectives, I suppose you just remember how much there is to experience out there. Back when I lived at home, I guess I just didn't have as many worries so I was free to just let my mind wander and just think about things. Lord knows my mind never really much paid attention to what I had to do in front of me, or what I was to be 5 years from now, or 10 years.

But was I never ambitious? Did I never really dream of what I wanted to be in my later years? Why? Was I too afraid? Did I not know the know-how, thus deemed that it was just a dream? Because if there is one thing I have learned, its that everything isn't so hard as you may think. I suppose I really could give it a shot and try, but maybe of part of me was just too comfortable with what my current situation is.

And then I moved out.

Paying bills, looking for that better paying job, and all the while being a boyfriend sure wasn't something I had pictured along the road. When I had to adapt to all of these responsibilities and still had growing up to do, thats probably when I realized that I guess I never did appreciate what I had. And even when I first started living with my Joni, I guess I still wasn't grateful for all the things I had, especially her.

She brought me a lunch when I was at work, she'd write me notes to stick to my car so that I knew she was thinking of me, she fixed me supper when I would get home. SO much and what did I ever really do to repay her?

Dates?
Notta.

Gifts?
Nothing worthwhile.

Affection?
Too much to appreciate.

I don't want to believe that I am just doomed to always take things for granted, and I need to stop blaming all these billls for my lack of action. If now more than ever, Joni needs a boyfriend to support her. I might not have all the things now than what I did back then to treat her to a good time, but its never too late. That is my hope.

I'm not typing this all as an apology though, no, I am typing this all down so that maybe I myself can remember what it should be to be a boyfriend. Someone to defend her, care for her, and inspire her. I can't just done one of these, I need to do them all.

That is what I realized today at work. Nothing should break my resolve to mend this, I know that I'm better than what I've been and I don't want to give up.

I'm not going to give up.

~Dan

Bionic Commando...

2008-02-15T20:02:13Z

2D goodness!!